Palimpsest is one of my favourite words because its meaning is so applicable to every aspect of life. It conveys the belief that something, whether a physical object or an idea, can be reused or altered and that traces of the original form will remain. A common version of palimpsests we may encounter are brick buildings where old adverts have started to fade away and graffiti tags are sprayed on top of them. Palimpsests are found throughout history and written text, such as this week’s parsha, Ha’Azinu [Deuteronomy].
Throughout Ha’Azinu God is speaking to Israelites through Moses, as God has done countless times before. God has criticised, praised, and commanded the Israelites previously, each time it is similar but different enough that traces from earlier messages remain. However, in the passage we read this week, there is one stark difference. In previous words from God, there was always an assumption that God would lead all Israelites over Mount Nebo towards the Land of Canaan. In this section Moses hears directly from God that he shall only be able to view Canaan from a distance and will remain behind as the rest of the Israelites venture forth. God cites Moses’ previous actions where he “broke faith with Me among the Israelite people at the waters of Meribah-Kadesh in the wilderness of Zin by failing to uphold My sanctity among the Israelite people [32:51],” for the reason why Moses shall never feel Canaan’s dirt beneath his feet.
Doubt is one of the factors that lead to Moses being denied access to the primary goal he had pursued for much of his life. As God reminds us throughout Ha’Azinu; do not doubt them, do not forget them, do not forget to “take to heart all the words which I have warned you today. Enjoin them upon your children, that they may observe faithfully all the terms of this Teaching [32:46].” Doubt is a powerful emotion, compelling us to waver in our certainty and sometimes, as this story with Moses illustrates, can have unexpected outcomes.
Each of us carry the layers of words and actions taken by our parents, our ancestors, and by God. We cannot always separate one from the other, they are like layers of paint built up over time. We know these words and actions are within us and hold influence, but it is up to us to decide what to add next.
At the heart of Ha’Azinu is an essential message that I often reflect upon, “for this is not a trifling thing for you: It is your very life [32:47].” We- like Moses- have a very real chance of labouring continuously towards a set of goals without knowing if we shall achieve it. The reward should not be achieving the goal, but celebrating the tenacity and chutzpah that went into pursuing our aspiration. The labour and life we lead is the reward itself. There is a possibility that we may only reach the equivalent of our Mount Nebo’s, never to fully descend into the land where our goal resides. Learning to be content with the act of living can help remind us that although we didn’t quite make it, our efforts do not exist in a vacuum. Our lives and labours are not isolated from one another and they will add to the layers of folks who shall come after us. All of us are the sum of labours taken by our friends, family, community and the ones who came before us. Perhaps there is a reason we are reminded of this passage towards the start of the new year. It is a time for us to humbly reflect and remember that if we do not live by the words of God as outlined in Ha’Azinu, we may not reach our Canaan’s, although our efforts will surely help others get there. May we each take our efforts, our multitude of layers, and faith in God and go from strength to strength in this new year.
Jemma Kaczanowicz
Director of Jewish Education & Accessibility Coordinator, Hillel York